I am a former member of COGOP. I no longer go there because I was hurt so painfully by insensitive people at headquarters sending cruel and hateful letters to me, that I withdrew my membership. I had been made a lay minister and almost immediately was drafted into the army. Headquarters sent my a series of nasty, cruel letters demanding that I send in monthly reports as to how many people I had gotten saved, sanctified, filled with the Holy Ghost, and added to the church. I tried to explain I was unable to carry on a ministerial work as a member of the armed forces, but they refused to listen. People in authority in this church were so cruel and demanding, and put so much pressure on their members, it's no wonder they lose most of their members. My stance on divorce is-any pressing reason is enough to get one. Shouldn't abused women be allowed to get a divorce? What about a man being sent to prison for many years-What about my own case-my wife deserted me, divorced me and married another man! I have no intention to re-marry, but if I changed my mind, it would certainly be okay with God, I believe. I believe, along with the Bible, we also need a good dose of common sense! What if it happened to YOU? Think about it...
-Marco
One of your "pastors" raped me violently and premeditatively when I was a 16 year old virgin. He was 24 at the time, but "called" to preach in the COGOP.
He blamed his sin on me because I caused him to lust. However, those in the church agreed if we would marry then it wouldn't be a sin any longer according to Deuteronomy...where the man rapes a virgin who is not betrothed and he must marry her.
I was young, naive, and traumatized. I didn't tell anyone what happened...it was "no one's business". I married him the week after I graduated high school...just turning 18.
He was a traveling evangelist spreading the word and I stayed back working to pay the bills.
He would rape me so often that I had to go to a doctor...if I refused for any reason I was not in submission.
He locked me in a house with a deadbolt lock and took the phone with him when he caught me "putting on mascara".
I finally escaped, only to be told by the preacher and others in leadership that if I divorced and ever dated or remarried (at age 19 after a year of torment) I would go to hell.
I lived my life in fear of hell, not going to church, not praying, because I had committed the unpardonable sin.
Only 30 years later...30 YEARS...I broke down and cried out to the LORD in my darkest hours and what do you think happened?
The Holy Spirit fell on me as never before and yes, I spoke in tongues and I have never loved the LORD more in my life. Yes, I am remarried and have two grown children.
The Pastor that raped me went on to later get a young girl pregnant and the COGOP finally stopped him from "traveling".
I have forgiven him and the COGOP for such ignorance of the scriptures. This was in 1977 when they still thought they were the only people going to heaven.
GOD was not asleep that day that I was a scared young girl who had tried to adhere to church teachings, yet I had become "defiled".
He is Sovereign over all and he knew he would use it for good. I speak and write to women everywhere about the abuses that churchs are guilty of. Thank GOD he has given me a ministry. It is not GOD who hurts them. HIS SON'S blood paid for their sins. It is men who are either ignorant of the Hebrew and Greek that the Bible was written in originally or GOD help them, just arogant and prideful.
I do forgive and I have grateful love in my heart for the church teaching me about the Holy Spirit...however...it is the grace of GOD that keeps you different from me. Nothing in ourselves keeps us "good". HE is in control.
GOD sees two kinds of people...those covered with HIS Son's precious blood of grace...and those who are not.
DO NOT keep condemning people to "hell", please.
I beg you.
Blessings and love in the name of OUR Father,
-Teri
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Teri, Jesus told the woman, who was caught in the very act of adultery, that he didn't condemn her, to go and sin no more. (John 8:11) He didn't throw stones at her but he didn't okay her sin; he told her, basically, Don't sin anymore! The church can't condemn a person to hell or save them and send them to heaven, but God's WORD does teach against remarriage while the person's spouse is still living, one verse being found in I Corinthians 7:39, "The wife is bound by the law as long as her husband liveth; but if her husband be dead, she is at liberty to be married to whom she will; only in the Lord." This shows that she is bound 'til he dies, THEN she can remarry, in the Lord.
ReplyDeleteLiving the Christian life doesn't mean that people, including spouses, are all going to treat us nicely, just look at what Jesus and Joseph went through; they were both mistreated, forsaken, by their own. Isn't that what has happened when a spouse mistreats and/or has an affair, yet we're to keep on doing right if we want to make it to heaven. We're not told that we'll have to answer to God for what others did to us but we do have to answer to God, one way or the other, for how we've responded to what others have done to us.
It may be that some didn't use all of the love and wisdom needed in dealing with your situation, may God help them, but that still doesn't change God's WORD. If you will, please take the time to read LIFETIME MARRIAGE DOCUMENT at this link: http://www.pelzerzacog.org/publications.html
Yours for Christ, Linda
I am sooo sorry to hear of this very sinful act forced on you.
ReplyDeleteHow can Jesus...living within a person...do such things?
But I do hear this within my spirit:
The LORD...He is speaking to His people again!...saying;
“I want you...to know...My heart.”
He is saying; “I remember the kindness of your youth”
“The love...of your betrothal...When you first went after Me”
“When you were in the wilderness,” saith the LORD.
The Eternal One...The LORD Jesus...Is speaking to the hearts of His people.
Calling us back again...To the place...when we first went after Him.
“I remember how you used to love Me.” “I remember how... you use to go after Me,” saith the LORD. “I remember you...& the kindness of your youth...the love of your betrothal...I remember you...How you use to go after Me...FROM THE HEART!”
“I remember you...how YOU...use to speak with Me.” “It was from your heart....your words...flowing out...from your heart.” “Oh...how I miss that,” saith the Eternal ONE! “I want your heart flowing again...like it use to...when you went after Me...from your heart...you Went...After...Me,” saith the LORD
Do you remember those early days in salvation? When all you had to hear is the mention of the name of Jesus...& you worshiped...you wept...& you rejoiced...& you worshiped again?
Those days...you slept little...you ate little...you didn’t have to plan it...or think about it...you just did it. Why!?...because there’s another service going on...there’s another...prayer meeting...going on...your heart saying; “I got to get with...my LORD.....my LORD Jesus.” It wasn’t PART of your life...It was the very...ESSENCE...of your life...the very...breath...of your heart...you had to be with Him.
He...is saying..."I remember...YOU."
You...had to know His presence...His kiss...of His word. You had to know Him.
Yearn again! ...my friend! His hand...wants...again...to come upon you...upon...the door of your heart. Yearn again!
This is what He is after...your longing...your reaching from the heart...going after Him from the heart...reaching for Him. Mourning...for Him...going after Him.
Groaning within...for Him. Settling for any thing else...is to never know Him as you did in the first.
“When...in the wilderness...you went after Him”
“I remember YOU,” saith the LORD.
“How...you...went...after Me...from the heart...it was all about...LOVE,” saith the LORD.
Is there something missing? There is something deeper! There is a glory that you have not seen. His glory...A glory...that you will want to give your life to.
Being born-again...being sanctified, Being filled...But...you have lost your...Thirst!
And have forgotten...what He has said to us.
And its this; “If any man...thirst...let him...come...to Me...& I will...give...him...rivers...of living water..that Will flow...out of your belly...Come...& drink!
Seek His face...while...it’s called...To day.
And you will find Him...His very presence...upon your life.
Don't blame God for the abuses in your life...They will stand before God...Narrow is the way...& a few there be that find it.
Preachers...get rid of that filth in your life!
Christians...get rid of that filth in your life!...these are people who open their hearts to sin, to the devil.
Wherever the presence of God is...there is repentance...there is holiness...there is a longing to be what He wants us to be.
I am so sorry for the sins of people in the church...God forgive...the blood of Christ will set you free!..repent...& return back to your first love!
All we must care about...is that He is in the room!
Some will not endure sound doctrine...but will turn to doctrines which will not convict one of sin.
We all need a revival...the fire of the Holy Ghost...the presence of the Living God...the touch of God in our lives...every day!
"Oh God..would You reveal to us...Your true...shekinah glory! This day, take up your cross...& follow Him"